2025-08-22-answering-marcus

Question 1: What makes you evangelize things so deeply?

I think it's in my blood, it's my archetype. It's in my being.

My great-grandfather was an evangelist - he went around Asia and China when it was not safe to be a pastor. He was literally evangelizing during the persecution period in the 1920s-1940s. That spirit spills over to my grandma, who I think has, at least for now, given up on evangelizing my parents - probably because she knows that I can evangelize my parents to believe in God.

And what's unmistakable is that I'm extremely heart-led. When my heart says "go all in on this" - I have gone. That's what makes me evangelize so deeply. It's not just intellectual - it's emotional, it's spiritual, it's my whole being lighting up when I encounter something that feels true and beautiful and good.

Why have I evangelized other things throughout my life? Because I've had that evangelism spirit in my life, but more than that - because my heart was on fire for those things. The difference now is I believe I'm listening more to God to align my heart with what is RIGHT and TRUE, not just what excites me or what I think will get me validation.

The key is to evangelize something that's worthwhile, and to me that's Christ - because only Christ can handle the full intensity of my heart when it's truly aligned.

Looking back, I can see this pattern everywhere - I evangelized for DoTA (a video game), my dance team’s shows, tropical house, police accountability, Gauntlet AI, for Alpha Schools, for crypto projects, for Dr. Alexander's work, for US-China collaboration. Even when I was throwing parties and concerts at Google, I was evangelizing for connection and community.

I think what happened is I had this evangelistic fire that was looking for the right fuel. I tried fueling it with patriotic tech innovation, political movements, educational reform - and there was some good in all of that. But none of it could contain the full intensity of what I was carrying. Only Christ is big enough for the evangelistic calling that's in my DNA.

And I think that's true for a lot of people who pour themselves into causes not worthy of their divine nature.

Evangelism feels like my family destiny. My great-grandfather risked his life to spread the Gospel in hostile territory. Now I'm interested in doing something similar - this time in elite circles where faith is often mocked or marginalized.

Question 2: Why do you feel you have concrete answers or solutions that others should trust and follow?

Because I believe Christ is Truth, and I believe love for Him and his love for me is where the answers flow from.

When that love flows through my veins, I can't help but share what I'm experiencing. And I can't help but point others toward the source of that love, as flawed as my understanding will always be.

But it's not about my understanding. I document how I follow Christ, but the most important thing I say in Faith Walk OS is to have their own love affair with the Creator of the universe. Because everything changes after you start that relationship. So of course people should listen - not to me, but to the love that's flowing through me.

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I'll add an additional question related to this though because I think it's a good exercise for any evangelist: "Why am I evangelizing anything publically?" - "Why am I taking a stance on anything?"

First and foremost, I've been able to change my mind given new information and experiences (many that people like you warned me about). At the Vatican, you explained what it was generally (demonic at the top), but I think it helped all of our understanding for me to actually have internal experience there, right? You told me again and again that I would learn lessons through working with certain people. And you've been correct many times. But I stubbornly chose to learn from those experiences myself.

So I think it's through those experiences that have given me the confidence to have more and more conviction about different things I say - because I've ruled out a lot of other things that I now see as false solutions / poor places for me to direct my movement building energy. And again, I'm always open to feedback about what is the actual truth. But I think I do a pretty good job of balancing both skepticism and conviction, where the conviction can change as needed based on my deepest feelings of what the truth actually is (based on research, experience, intuition, advice, etc).

But why express that conviction at all? Why publish anything? Why create things like FaithWalk OS? Because beyond feeling like God wants me to, it's helpful. People have told me it's helpful. People have benefited from my supporting guidance, even as a baby Christian. When I go deep on something - really, really deep - I love meeting other people that can go very deep even though they didn't grow up in a faith household. Like, for example, a former private equity guy who 4 years ago went extremely deep in the faith and centered his entire life around it.

Other baby Christians appreciate the ability to have someone else that is on a similar trajectory - not someone on some kind of esoteric pedestal where I'm a priest of some denomination. I'm approachable, and I think that I can help a lot of people get on a better path.

The "concrete answers" come from pattern recognition across failed systems. I've seen the inside of Google's dysfunction, Alpha Schools' mediocrity, the Vatican's politics, billionaire delusions - when you've witnessed that many false solutions up close, you start recognizing what actually works versus what just sounds good.

Christ's Way, as best as I understand it, is the only way I can earnestly endorse right now. And concretizing what that walk is for me, is the best way I believe I can help others concretize their own walks.

Question 3: Why do you feel the hype on a space, topic, project fades so quickly in your experiences?

I think it's just me killing my idols one at a time. I've wanted to get the validation of power and money and status. That's a lot of what drove it. No doubt a lot of what drove it was idealism - for example, the Catholic Church has over a billion congregants or people that even loosely call themselves Catholic. To be able to have an impact on a billion people in any sort of way felt exciting, right? That's very much the tech mindset where you can implement some kind of technology or change in the system and make a big difference.

Would I turn down the opportunity to work on some technology with Pope Leo? I'm not even sure, right? I'm going to be honest. Because if it was open-source technology that any group could benefit from and is contributing to the collective intelligence of the world, I very much might consider using Catholic resources to build that.

But again and again, I killed my idols. I had to scratch my itch. I had to work with Ryan Leslie, a celebrity that my friends from home respected. With Google, I needed to get that on my resume to feel like I was smart enough to be respected by my secular peers. With Edge City, I wanted to work with Vitalik and get enmeshed with what I thought was genuinely valuable but also high-status communities - longevity, AI, crypto, etc.

And here's what I think takes real courage - I have the courage to move on. I have the courage to tell myself that whatever I believed in was wrong, and I move to something new. It takes courage to shed and admit that something didn't work. It takes courage to say, "I just wanted to work at Google to impress my peers." I'm brave enough to realize that even if I start a project and feel it doesn't satisfy my greater good, I move on from it.

Some people see it as being lost or being hesitant. But it's not that - I have the courage to realize that I need to move on and grow. And if I start something, even if it doesn't satisfy my soul, I leave it and move on. That's not weakness - that's courage to be honest about what's really driving me.

So making sure that each of those experiencesI realize that these are not good people to collaborate with.

Question 4: What are you learning about your own behavioral patterns?

I'm a fallen person, that is realizing just how true the Bible is, how true Christ's teachings are, how true Christ's way is - which is why actually I believe that we need to help demystify what Christ's way is for the modern man, for the modern techie, for the modern person that spends a lot of time on their phone and has so much temptation. Because it is so easy to do almost the exact opposite of what Christ's way is and wear a cross while you're doing it.

I've had a desire to do big things, to scale quickly, and that is a reflection of me wanting to be part of something that scales and has a big impact. And so I don't know exactly what I should be doing, what I can do, or what I will do next that does have some kind of impact but in a way that is deeply Christ-aligned and does not require me to go big immediately - just start small.

And this is where I'm learning something beautiful - this moment of being lost, not knowing what to do, this is the perfect spot for a follower of Christ to realize that we should live day by day and surrender it to God. This is why He asks us to live day by day. This is why He asks us to live in the present, forget the past and don't worry about the future - because He wants us to focus on our present task and ultimately trust Him to guide us to the person we should be.

When I say I don't know exactly what I should be doing or what I can do or what I will do next - this is where Christ comes. In the midst of being lost and being torn about what we should be, we realize the answer is not in knowing, but rather in entrusting Christ that He will lead us.

And what is the essence of Christ that allows us to evolve? It's dying. Killing yourself. That very Christian idea - in reality, God created this reality where we can activate our divine nature to kill our fallen selves, our previous versions of ourselves.

And then… be resurrected!

People say, "Why is this person jumping from one thing to another? It doesn't make sense." But it makes perfect sense when you're aligned with the truth. It makes perfect sense when you're aligned with Christ. It makes perfect sense when you're actively looking for the greatest Gary that you can be. And looking for that requires that even if you start something that doesn't fulfill you - fuck it, I'm going to move on.

The idea is: Start small, build sovereignty, scale once you have delivered a product or service or whatever it is that you own and you can build your island around - an island of Christ alignment where you can be as truthful and have as much integrity as possible. And that means saying no to work with almost everyone.

And learning to stop valuing almost everything that my tech friends value.

Question 5: What is your core darkness that needs to die in your flesh?

I think it's wanting and caring for the validation of people that are not aligned with Christ - that don't share Christ's values, don't share Christ's heart. Wanting to feel like I needed to do things that are validated, that my parents will understand while they're in their current spiritual state.

So what I'm doing almost exclusively now is trying to figure out what is the best thing that I can be doing that is deeply aligned with what God wants, not what I imagine other people want. Even if it's trendy at the current time, right? All these trends fade away, and what is solid, what is rock, is Christ.