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2026-01-07-gary-tamara-brown-education-memoir-declarationsCall/Meeting Summary: Extended Career Strategy and Personal History
Overview
Extended hangout with Tamara following the deliverance session, watching Apostle Delmar's service together on YouTube. Tamara shared deep education insights from her charter school experience, personal trauma history (abusive marriage, divorce), and creative project ideas. Gary demonstrated his declarations app and discussed potential collaboration on memoir/course creation.
Key Topics Discussed
Education Insights from Charter School Experience
Critical Period Theory:
- Tamara raised the critical period hypothesis for language acquisition
- Referenced the case of "Genie" (1960s-70s) - severely abused child who could never fully acquire language after puberty
- Can't ethically test on other children, but the real-world evidence is alarming
Reading Crisis in Schools:
- Kids at 8-9 years old who cannot read at all
- Some students cannot recognize numbers when written
- "Some of them are really articulate, and they can't read or recognize numbers"
- Parents crying in meetings because their kids are behind
Microschool Implications:
- Challenge: How to help kids who are 8-9 years old but haven't acquired basic literacy?
- Key question: Do microschools accept everyone or test for admission?
- "No Child Left Behind" criticism: "That child should be in first grade to comprehend first grade concepts, even if they're 12"
Teaching Approach:
- Had to go "all the way back to the alphabet" with an 8th grader to teach basic ABC's
- Observed that kids associate images with sounds more naturally than words with sounds
- Suggested exploring pictographic approaches to language learning
Tamara's Resignation Confirmed
Ida's Defense to Dr. G:
- Dr. G called Ida in for a meeting asking about Tamara
- Dr. G asked why Tamara was "such an angry person"
- Ida defended: "She talked to me about the most impressive thing... she speaks languages, 13 years military, was a leader"
- Ida told Dr. G: "You have amazing people on the staff, and you're making them minimize themselves"
Dr. G's Response:
- Claimed he didn't know Tamara's hours were cut
- Said he would have done something if she had told him directly
- Deflected blame to Melissa and the principal
- Ida noted he seemed to have "his tail between his legs"
Hostile Environment Pattern:
- Tamara researched Dr. G's past: previous hostile environment complaints
- Theory: He overcompensates by trying to control situations to prevent future complaints
- Surveillance-like behavior stems from past trauma/criticism
Personal Trauma History
Abusive Marriage:
- Tamara shared she had an abusive marriage
- "What I went through is that even if what somebody's doing might be wrong, it doesn't even register"
- Developed survival instinct of not reacting to abuse
Divorce Aftermath:
- Lost sense of purpose after separation
- "All the things I had visualized after marriage came crashing down"
- "There's no point when we get everything we gave away"
- Struggled to find direction for a long time
Emotional Processing:
- Friends say she doesn't show emotion / hard to read her facial expressions
- Explained it as processing information quietly: "When I'm just indicating or processing information... I'm just blankly staring but I'm listening"
- Also attributed to desensitization: "Because you've seen so much stuff"
Creative Projects and Collaboration
Memoir Plans:
- Has two complete journals from military deployments (start to finish)
- First deployment journal, second deployment journal, life after military
- Gary offered to create mini-app to process journals (photo → transcribe → annotate)
Course Development:
- Planning Spanish language course with textbook and potential app
- Gary suggested revenue share model for collaboration
- Discussed platforms: Teachable, Kajabi, etc.
Poetry Book:
- Has tons of poetry already written
- Gary offered to help package and format
Content Creation Strategy:
- Discussed using Meta Ray-Bans for efficient content capture
- Gary demonstrated how quickly AI can convert recorded content to structured text
- Tamara: "Is that how fast you just did all of that... converting content into something tangible is crazy"
Watching Apostle Delmar's Service Together
Key Teachings Observed:
- "Don't let what you see change what you know. Let what you know change what you see."
- Kingdom language: "If you don't know the Word, then you don't know Kingdom"
- "God wants you to bring heaven to earth"
- On supernatural beings: "When you got born again, you got born in the supernatural. You are supernatural beings."
Gary's Declarations App Demo:
- Showed Tamara his custom declarations app
- Daily scripture declarations read aloud
- Example: "I take my word medicine today. God restores health unto me, and heals me of my wounds"
- Tamara: "Is it you?" (reading the declarations) - demonstrated the personalized nature
Declarations vs Affirmations:
- Gary: "They say affirmations, but you call them declarations"
- Carlos (mentioned) needs to be "in the habit" of daily declarations
- "The spiritual warfare is daily. It doesn't just stop."
Discerning God's Voice
Church Camp Exercise:
- Tamara shared metaphor exercise from church retreat
- Blindfolded, one person speaks calmly with consistent directions
- Others come in louder, trying to drown out the quiet voice
- Lesson: "God's voice is still, it's quiet, it's consistent"
- Manipulative voices are loud and contradictory
Application:
- "You have to figure out how you get to that place where you can hear... cutting out influences, changing the places you go, the content you're listening to"
Windshield Incident - Spiritual Warfare?
The Event:
- Right after Tamara's confrontational phone call with Dr. G, a rock hit her windshield
- Happened immediately after she hung up
- Crack is spreading
Her Question:
- "Is it the energy I'm exuding out into the universe because I got worked up?"
- "Or is it because of the negative energy he was sending to me?"
- Gary suggested it could be a spiritual attack
Personal Preferences and Background
Music:
- Grew up on gospel, used to like R&B
- Uses Cardi B for workout motivation (admits feeling guilty about it)
- Gary shared he used to throw electronic music parties
Cultural Identity:
- First friend in kindergarten was Chinese (Jimmy)
- Second best Asian friend was Eric (China) - studied abroad together in Spain
- Gary's dad has been trying to learn Spanish via Duolingo for years with no progress
Gary's Family:
- Parents and brother are not believers
- "I have a lot of work to do"
Key Quotes
Tamara on Education Crisis:
"These people are not delayed. They have not been taught, and now the challenge is when they are eight or nine years old to try to get them to an eighth or ninth grade level when they have not had their basics."
Tamara on Discerning God's Voice:
"God's voice is still, it's quiet, it's consistent. It doesn't say like these things, it'll never try to persuade you, manipulate you... the goal is you're supposed to be able to recognize that those loud voices are manipulative voices."
Gary on AI and Personality:
"Personality is basically... the value that's going up in the age of AI."
Gary on Spiritual Warfare:
"The devil loves it when you're alone and just brooding on your thoughts... I do a lot of encouragement with my friends just to not give up, because it's not easy to just keep going. The spiritual warfare is daily."
Apostle Delmar (from service):
"Don't let what you see change what you know. Let what you know change what you see."
"When you got born again, you got born in the supernatural. You are supernatural beings. Why are you still trying to use your fists?"
Action Items / Takeaways
- Tamara: Photograph and send military journal pages to Gary for processing
- Gary: Potentially create custom app for Tamara's journal digitization and annotation
- Both: Explore revenue-share collaboration on Spanish course
- Tamara: Focus on personality-driven content since that's what appreciates in AI age
- Carlos: Needs consistent daily declarations habit, not just one-time deliverance
Collaboration Framework
Gary articulated a potential working relationship:
- "If you're uploading 200 pages of journal entries, I would probably be more efficient if I create a little app for you"
- "If I'm helping you with your business get to the next level... maybe we're business partners in a way"
- "The key for me to work with someone is that they just have so much in their head that they don't even know how to get it into the right form. That's you."